Things do start to unravel though as Kirsty loses her temper when Julie leaves Ruby with Sally. By the end of that week, Kirsty’s actually gone missing with Ruby – do you think she’s beyond help at this point?
For me, these scenes are more important than the court case. This is the climax, almost more than seeing Tyrone in court. She’s incensed at Julie, loses her temper and throws a cup across the room - and that’s when the mask falls. Both of them pretend everything’s OK but, there’s this awful moment where Julie realises what Kirsty is really like, and Kirsty realises it’s over. She knows there’s nowhere left to turn, her mum knows the truth, Julie has seen her for what she is and in a moment of temper she hits Julie. She’s flipped and is no longer just taking her anger out on someone very close to her. This is the last piece of the jigsaw and everything’s come shattering down.
So Julie runs out and the baby’s screaming. In a manic state, Kirsty’s trying to calm Ruby but she realises that enough people now know for her lies to come tumbling down. Once again, she loses her temper, but this time with the baby. She’s screaming and screaming at Ruby and it’s just a horrid moment. That’s her moment of realisation. She realises she can’t bring this baby up as she was brought up – she knows that now.
So is this the beginning of the end for Kirsty?
This is probably coming up to the last time we see her. She’s nowhere else to go, nobody else to call and no one else to defeat. Her position on the Street is untenable. Everyone she used to work with is now going to know the truth one way or another. She’s going to be the enemy of the Street, so she feels the need to get away from that both physically and mentally. Once she has screamed at Ruby, she’s genuinely frightened of herself and doesn’t know what she’s capable of.
For Kirsty, the last six months have been a pressure cooker and she’s been living a complete lie, as has Tyrone. She decided to take her revenge on Tyrone because of his feelings for Fiz, and now she knows she’s turning into her dad. Her one redeeming factor is that she knows she doesn’t want Ruby to experience what she did as a child. She knows the game is up.
And how has it been playing this character who has been potentially quite dangerous from the start?
Challenging, surprising, daunting, terrifying, exhilarating, devastating: a whole mishmash of emotions! There’s always something about her that fills you with dread or surprise. Every step of the way there’s been something that has made me wonder how I was going to play it and make it real. It has been difficult at times to play. Personally, I like to plant the seed early on, but part of the challenge is the not knowing what is going to come next for your character.
So does the ending feel right then, for you?
For now, at least, it does.