Cheryl Cole is back on the UK X Factor and admits she can finally talk about that US X Factor hiccup.
That hiccup of course being that in 2011 she was let go from the US version of the show after just one episode.
Hiccup is probably too tame a word, but it’s OK, Cheryl did the swearing herself.
“F**k you. F**k Fox. F**k the orange and purple outfit. F**k big hair. F**k the UK X Factor. F**k you all. I hate you.”
That was the text Simon Cowell received after the news was broken to Cheryl, she tells Elle magazine.
“I can talk about this because I’m OK about it now,” Cheryl admits. “But I went through hell and it literally drove me mad."
The experience made her feel “desensitised” and felt people could say terrible things and she wouldn’t even blink.
“I shut down because I didn’t know what else to do.”
Yet, although she’s spent years working through a “f**k it list” to get herself back on track (including that tattoo), Cheryl says Simon made the right call.
“Now, I can say that Simon was right to get rid of me. I wasn’t well in the head when that was going on, so it wasn’t going to work.
“But he wasn’t right not to tell me to my face.”
The former Girls Aloud singer hasn’t been seen on the show since, but has decided to rejoin the UK panel, along with Simon this year.
“I don’t bear grudges” Cheryl explains, detailing the plane she had sent over Simon’s house with the message ‘Simon Cowell is 52 today! Ha ha ha! Love Cheryl xoxo’ to break the ice.
After apologies and a lot of turning him down, Cheryl agreed to return, alongside newcomer Mel B and former Girls Aloud manager Louis Walsh. Things are “frosty” with Louis she admitted to Graham Norton. But confirms, “I felt I was ready to do it,” adding with a final smack of a woman in control: “I don’t give a f*ck what people think any more.”
Read the full interview in the August issue of Elle on sale from today